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2002-11-22 . 10:03 a.m. . I MISS JOE!!!!

Well, I made it! My hubby finally gets back today. It was pretty sad last night. I got home from baby-sitting for one of the families from our church and saw our friend Tom's car out in the parking lot. Tom had gone out into the field along with Joe and all the other guys, so naturally I thought they got to come home because it was going to be in the 20s last night. So, I ran to the house and wouldn't you know it.....Joe wasn't there. :( Tom says he had to stay out with his platoon to clean up the site. HMPH!! Anyone watching the sequence of events of me going from sheer excitement to utter sadness would have been moved to tears...I'm sure of it! :) Oh well, just one more day, PLUS, Tom said that they would be home around noon, which is 3-5 hours sooner than I had thought!! YEAH!! I can't wait to see him. I don't know how in the world I am going to be able to handle months at a time. I sometimes wonder if I have what it takes to be an officer's wife. AUGH, we'll see though. They, other military wives, say that it is amazing the amount of strength you have when you need it. I am ok today, just really really excited to see my hubby!!

Anyway, I have managed to both scare and excite myself, both with an effect of tears. I was watching T.V. this morning and was flipping between Regis and Kelli (my favorite) and A Baby Story. One family was having their first, like us, and the mom was in having a cesarian (sp?) and the dad had to stay out in the hall. He was pacing up and down the hall in nervousness and excitement and I just burst into tears, picturing Joe being the EXACT same way. He is going to be such a basket case it won't even be funny!! Anyone who knows him knows that he is a WAY level headed guy who stays pretty cool and collected ALL the time. However, they also know he has it in him to be an amazing father and get really excited about little ones, especially at the thought of it being his. Right, Liz? I just pictured him and started crying knowing that he is so excited to be a daddy, but oh so nervous at the same time. There is this family at church that has a little 6 month old who has Joe totally wrapped around her finger. He gets down on the floor with her and talks to her. We were baby-sitting her the other day and she fell asleep on him while he was feeding her and when I asked him if he wanted me to put her in her bed, he said no, he wanted to hold her. Our daughters are going to be TOTAL Daddy's Girls!! It'll be so great!

Now comes the scary part. I should have listened to Liz in her journal about thinking she should stop watching it, but no, I thought I would be fine. Um, NO, I was freaking out!!!! I had my eyes covered squirming around uncomfortably just seeing how much pain she was in. Ugh, I am definitely going to have to toughen up or find a way to relax myself. I'm sure my parents are reading this and thinking, "RELAX?!?! She thinks she is going to relax?!?!?!?! Not our daughter!!!" Yeah, I am not known for such things. I am known for getting stressed out VERY easily and panicking. Ugh I pitty the doctor who will be delivering our baby. I am going to start talking myself into it though. Telling myself how I am going to react and that I am going to be tough and brave....we'll see how that works. Oh, I am so scared...... My friend did the Bradley Method of birthing and she swears by it. It is all about relaxation and letting your body take control. I'm not sure when you start birthing classes, but I think that's the one I am going to do. Anyone know anything else about it or other methods? Let me know in my guestbook.

Anyway, I need to work out. I haven't been feeling so great lately, a sore throat and stuffy nose, so I am going to take it really easy and spend lots of time stretching....mmmmm, I LOVE stretching!! So I'm off! Hope ya'll have a great day!!

~Babydaze

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